I will be ...23 ! :) I am very excited for my birthday --- && out of my blah mood. I will no longer let other things & people interfere with that. I know it will be amazing. I am lucky to have the friends I do have ; and the support I have day in & day out. Something I would not trade for the world. I have so much going for me ; and so much to keep on doing to make my dreams alive in this city of big dreams. I will cherish this year as much as the next && I will keep becoming a better ; smarter && stronger woman. I have a dream to touch the lives of many in this world - & I feel like I already am doing just that. That is a lot more than many others in this world can say. Have you made a great difference or impact on our world ; our our youth; on our future ? I have. && that makes my years alive the best years ever. Thankyou Lord for the blessing of another birthday ... && MANY more to come :) Through Him I can do all things !!!
If you know me oh so very well ; you know one of my many addictions is sex & the city. BEFORE the movies came out. You can ask me just about anything from sex & the city and I will know the answer 120 percent sure. Lol. I have been following it since season one ; since my mom was a huge huge fan. I went for the early screening of the movie on May 26th ....& I was lucky to get there when it was basically empty still. Got amazing seats ; & enjoyed everrrrrrrrry single minute of it <3 If you have yet to go see it - you must do so. I know I will be going again to see it with my mother & grandmother. && then maybe another couple of times with some more friends. It was just great. I laughed so much too !!
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It is officially my birthday week. My real birthday lands on saturday the 29th. I will be turning 23; and plan to have the best time of my life. I am very excited because for the first time I 1. have a GOOD boyfriend for my birthday ; someone who wants to party it up with me & make it the best for me && 2. my bestfriend EVER is going to be able to be here to celebrate it with me ; after many years of not being able to. It should hopefully be a great one. I am just thankful I made it another year - thank you Lord.
I was so cranky this weekend about my birthday and the whole planning of it that I just stayed home in bed - in pjs - all weekend. Lol. But im slowly trying to just shake myself out of that feeling && enjoy this week of being *thee birthday girl <3
Heres a look into my last birthday ....
Posted by gor(jess). @ 10:57 PM
This is a post ; especially for my boyfriend. Cus - eff all the groupies ~ Im his number one fan ! :) Lol. He has been doing his thing - from performing atleast once a week ; always in the studio && just grinding on his music thing. I am very proud & very honored to be with a man of so much talent & motivation !
My cutie in the NY ♥ me shirt ;)
Posted by gor(jess). @ 9:11 PM
She walks like a boss ; talks like a boss - manicure nails to set the pedicure off. She move like a boss ; do what a boss do.
Kinda woman that wants you ; but don't need you. Plus she got drive that matches your drive. Now she looks at you like inspiration - she wanna be complimenting your swag. Independent Queen working for her thrown.
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Check it out . A picture a day :)
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My favorite Book :
This one is a tough one ; but I guess if I had to pick -->
I am DYING to read her other books ; its just amazingly hillarious. I was dying of laughter when I read this one. I couldnt put it down at all . I really recommend reading this book.
Posted by gor(jess). @ 2:14 PM
Love this song ; but I believe the rmx is just a lot better. I have always been a HUGE mariah fan since the age of 8. Cant wait to hear her new stuff soon enough.
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I would give up everything just to feel and be with you
If I had to
I would pawn the ring you gave to me just to feed you
If I had to
I would give my very last breath just to help save you
If I had to
I would tell a lie just because I know you are the truth
I ride for you
Cause your the truth
I die for you
Cause I'm a fool In love with you
And I'll do anything
That pleases you
If I had to
I would throw away my only wish just to proove to you
If I had to
I would die all alone living there without you
If I had to
I would go through all the pain again just to find you
If I had to
I'd surrender all my love just because I love you
I wanna run to you
Breathe as one with you
Absent any time without you
Existing only for you
Every dream is of you
Only turn to you.
Posted by gor(jess). @ 5:00 PM
Monday makes it officially my birthday week :) I am excited - yet tired of planning crap out. LOL. But this post is to ask for your help --
I do NOT want to do my own makeup & hair on my birthday ; which is Saturday May 29th ....I am thinking about going to do my makeup at sephora or MAC & my hair at the salon ...but tryna save some money if I can possibly.
If you know of anyone that does hair and make up in the NYC area please let me know ; or of any great deals. I would highly appreciate it :)
I also wanted to get myself a nice cake ; but I am not too sure it will be done by the 29th if I ask for it now. I just have no idea who to ask on such short notice "/ let me know though guys ♥
Posted by gor(jess). @ 12:52 AM
Your favorite Television Program ?
Now -- I can be like every usual girl & say something like Gossip Girl or Sex and the City ... which dont get me wrong; i LOVE LOVE LOVE. But my most favorite of ALL time ....
Not only because its in QUEENS ♥. But more so because its just down right hillarious. I love the whole cast on that show & can never get tired of watching this show. Of course I have many other favorites - but I always catch myself watching this one. Plus ; its a classic !
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This month at work we had to teach the kids about things reffering to the topic of the month which was Asian Pacific Heritage. Alot of my kids are asian ; So they have been having a lot of fun with it. We had a bake sale also to help raise money for the St Judes Cancer Research Fund. Here are some stuff up around the hallways & other things.
Posted by gor(jess). @ 12:24 AM
My bestfriends wedding. I watched this movie way back when I was about 10 years old & fell inlove. I got it on VCR ; for my 11th birthday from my bestfriend & I watched it just about every single day of my life. I never miss it when they show it on TBS now too ! Lol. I make everyone & anyone watch it with me. I love everything about it. " You never know what you have till its gone " && " If things are meant to be ; they will find its way " is what comes to mind with this movie.
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My favorite Song :
Now ---- I will be doing this by Genre. Just because I love music ; I am not those kinda people that claim music is their life & only listen to one kind of genre. I really do listen to it all. So here ya go ! :)
rap;hiphop & rnb ♥
latin; spanish alternative; country; gospel
thats just right off the top of my head. I have way too many favorites ; it was tough to do on a time span. Lol.
Posted by gor(jess). @ 10:32 PM
Motivates blogging daily. So lets see if I can really do this ....
Day 01 — Your favorite song
Day 02 — Your favorite movie
Day 03 — Your favorite television program
Day 04 — Your favorite book
Day 05 — Your favorite quote
Day 06 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 07 — A photo that makes you happy
Day 08 — A photo that makes you angry/sad
Day 09 — A photo you took
Day 10 — A photo of you taken over ten years ago
Day 11 — A photo of you taken recently
Day 12 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 13 — A fictional book
Day 14 — A non-fictional book
Day 15 — A fanfic
Day 16 — A song that makes you cry (or nearly)
Day 17 — An art piece (painting, drawing, sculpture, etc.)
Day 18 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 19 — A talent of yours
Day 20 — A hobby of yours
Day 21 — A recipe
Day 22 — A website
Day 23 — A YouTube video
Day 24 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 25 — Your day, in great detail
Day 26 — Your week, in great detail
Day 27 — This month, in great detail
Day 28 — This year, in great detail
Day 29 — Hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 days
Day 30 — Whatever tickles your fancy
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This CD was my lifes playlist for the year of 2006 ! I just loved it. Very deep lyrics.
Posted by gor(jess). @ 10:35 PM
"I got a thing for this little mama she do it to me plus her brain is forreal imma sucka for love I guess. Wont catch her up in the club cuz she aint into that; Kind of chick that rather rent a flick and get intimate. Say she never fuck with thug niggas only gentlemen && yea that ass is fat but whats better is her intellect. Other men sweat her when we walk past. Cant even blame em’ I did the same when I saw that ass match with the thin waist, brown with a slime face. Love the conversation and the kicks was like a sensai. Now she got me chillin with her all around the clock. My homies beefin cuz I never come around a lot. Keep on telling me I changed and things aint the same & ever since she came around I never want to hang. They tell me that its foul how a chick will make me switch; But man I cant help it dog her mind got me whipped!" - J Cole ♥
Posted by gor(jess). @ 9:59 PM
My boyfriend is currently looking for a new place to move to - in QUEENS :). Im sure gunna miss commuting to the city to see him ; or going straight from my job out to him. But him being closer will be great. He doesnt know it yet ; but I will be furnishing & remodeling his place. Lmao. From Hello kitty bedsheets to Wu Tang Posters. Haha JK Babe ! Cus I know your reading this. But I wonder if a man can keep something like this clean. My dream living room :)
&& of course he'll be coming home to a lot of these ;) Lol.
Posted by gor(jess). @ 7:15 PM
"If the world comprehended at the same level all sense would be common
Some will late bloom some have impecable timing, I said I did it with precision
And please don't try to duplicate this rendition " - Pete Rock
" I said boo my love is unconditional; Kinda like Lauryn Hill's it's unintentional
not a epic saga or a motion picture we gon party tonight " - Pete Rock
"Gotta rendition & rederick you've never heard; spit it with clarity my words are never slurred " - Pete Rock
Posted by gor(jess). @ 6:24 PM
This weekend as my birthday month celebrations I went to an AMAZING Cuban restuarant called Havana Alma De Cuba out in the West Village. I loved every minute of it ; from the live music ; to the paintings ; the candlelight scenery ; the salty mojitos; && the food of course :) It was another great birthday weekend with my main squeeze. Here are some pictures <3
Posted by gor(jess). @ 5:47 PM
"It is better to have one friend of great value than to have many friends of little value." - Unknown
I have lately been really realizing what friends of mine are true ; and which are fake. I have many "friends" - but I have always been the type to just let things go; and be like oh well ; they forgot about me - but I will be there with open arms when they remember me. But lately ; I have gotten tired of being that way. Im getting tired of always being there for people no matter what ; when I dont get the same back. So I decided to cut people out of my life completely. To the point where I dont care about your life ; I dont care about your where abouts ; I dont even care any longer if your alive & safe. I will be deleting your emails/texts etc. without even taking the time to read them; because your pointless to my life right now. I know it sounds very mean - but I'm just done. From now on everyone will be getting treated the way they treat me. Its sad that people I once called my friends forget about me because they 1. are in a new relationship so GOD FORBID there physco girlfriends/boyfriends find out they are still friends with me ; or 2. they have new friends they dont even know so well ; and if it does not have to do with clubbing or drinking they wont hit me up. I sit here and think of all I have done for these "friends" of mine ; all the times I have dropped plans for them ; all the time I have wasted to do things and favors for them - without getting anything in return for it. I was always the first one to boost about my friends achievements and how amazing they are ; how talented they are - give them props ; write blogs about them - help out with promotion; etc. Now I will choose wisely who I do that all for. Besides the fact that I have been very sick lately & was going through real bad depression - I felt like I still had to beg certain friends to ask me how I was doing and what not. Like REALLY?. I am living for me now; I will be selfish now. & sooner or later when their relationships fail & there " new friends " show their true colors - I wont be there to pick up the pieces. I'll be there to say : This is what you asked for.
Posted by gor(jess). @ 5:30 PM
I AM SOOO HYPED for Rock the Bells this year. Last year I was suppose to go ; I was VERY close to going - but situations occurred & someone ruined that for me. This year though ; I will be going no matter what. Lol. I just really hope they have some of the same artist from last years show - which most likely happens. Next week they will be having the line up party ...I will be waiting for it to spread the the internet that night. All I know is they always deliver ; so it will be a great night !!
Posted by gor(jess). @ 5:19 PM
Comes out May 18th - Distant Relatives ; Nas & Damian Marley !! Will it be a good enough comeback ? He is saying it is not something we would expect from him ; so im anxious to see what he will be bringing to the table in this album.
Posted by gor(jess). @ 5:16 PM
I'm here in bed ; sick out of my mind. I have been sick all week. I am not sure if its just my allergies acting up to the fullest !! or if its a cold. Who knows with this bi-polar weather. Many people are telling me I keep getting sick cus I dont rest enough - I'm always up && out doing things or working/studying. But thats life I gotta keep doing what I gotta do. I haven't blogged in a while so im going to catch up on that today; plus write a couple new poems ... have so many ideas and thoughts written in my blackberry ; time to get them on paper. Have to finish up last minute preparations for a training I will be coordinating with my co workers on Monday night ; SUPER nervous because its the first training I will be coordinating - but I know we will do amazing !!! I am also going to be starting my framework for motivational speaking. I have added that to my list of things I want to accomplish in life ; because I feel that is what many females out there need - motivation to live a healthy happy life ! I have found a couple schools & places - but I cant do much without the framework & representation of it all.
So that was a little update for you all ......now be ready for the overflow of blogs coming !! haha :)
Posted by gor(jess). @ 4:29 PM
LOVE this song ; since I first heard it when his CD came out.
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It bothers me when I see people in unhealthy relationships; more so because I have been in many of those & know the signs of it & the denial people go through when it comes to it. I just really wish people loved themselves a lot more to realize it themselves. BUT this post does not really have to do with that. I just want to vent out about how blessed I feel - for not being in a relationship of that sort anymore. I was single for 5 LONG years till I met my boyfriend now & it was all worth it. I gotta admit I do think that I have the most healthiest & MATURE relationship ever. Not just because we have GREAT communication between the both of us ; were both very upfront & understanding - so it helps us not fight much at all. We resolve differences real quick & get passed things easily. But also because we seriously talk about everything ; and I mean EVERYTHING. He knows more about me than anyone because Im not scared to tell him my secrets & deep thoughts ; and vice versa. I feel we talk about many things other couples would be too scared to talk about ; or keep to themselves because they feel their other half will get either upset or take it the wrong way. We never hold anything in ; were what people would call over the top honest with eachother. But I feel were lucky enough to both be real understanding and mature enough to take it. I have always been that kind of person ; now I just got blessed with a man that can handle it also.
I got him a card not long ago ; randomly to show him that he means the world to me. It was on a post I did before that read " If I know what love is; it is because of You ". You dont have to be in love to feel & know what real love is.
This is what I wrote to him :
There's been many times I thought I knew real love but in all honesty never did they live up to what real love is. I have never been with someone who just loves me unconditionally. no matter what I say or do. You have stuck by me thru thick and thin you have trusted me and loved me when times got tough and many others wouldve called it quits but you stayed by me. you have never hurt me or let me down. you have never talked down to me or thrown my mistakes in my face. you have shown me what a real mature man is. you have shown me real mature honest unconditional and gentle love . thankyou for being you
I love you ♥
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