im buying MYSELF a promise ring.

Usually boyfriends give there girlfriends PROMISE rings ....to ensure them that they wont do them wrong & stuff like that. Also that they are always going to be there. I have decided though; that I dont have to wait for my boyfriend to get me one. I am going to get me one ...so when I look down on it I remember the promises I want to keep to myself. How I will forever be there for me, and keep myself positive. How at the end of the day...all I really have is myself. How only I can make my life as beautiful as I want it to be. I adore my boyfriend; and he is nothing but amazing ! but you have to be realistic at times ..and remember that YOU are always going to be there for yourself when no one else is.

sexy sexy.

Ive been letting my eyebrows grow out for the past two weeks ...Ive done longer ; but seriously its the hardest thing ever to do ! LOL. It starts to irk me & I just want to go get them done. Because everyone knows how much getting your eyebrows done can drastically change your appearance. It makes you look like a complete different person. But I have been going to the same spot for the past four years & my eyebrows keep getting thinner and thinner. I cant stand it though. So I decided I will grow them out as much as I can .. A month hopefully =X and then go to a spot I used to go to around my old job to get them how I want them.

aren't they lovelllly ?

lets see if I can do it !

it was love at first sight --->

♥

two more weeks :)

Soon enough my baby brother Lucas will be brought into the world. I cannot wait. I will spoil the little boy sooo much. haha. But yesterday was the baby shower, which was a complete success. All the hard work & hours payed off. She loved it all & got amazing gifts. The food was great & everyone enjoyed themselves.

Here's a pic of me drinking my baby bottle filled with Beer <3 yuum. Lol. It was one of the games for the night.

dedicated to my first love - NYC ♥

There is no place I would rather live. I love it here ♥

Why must we be SO complicated ? =X

There's Something About Jessica <3

I have always absolutely loved this movie. Has both of my favorite people :) I just seen it again for the 500th time. I love it not only because my wife is in it; lol but also because it shows that love is unconditional ; she was a spazz through out the whole movie wrecking his things & hurting him ...lol but still he was like so intrigued by her. It was a real cute thing to see. I thought about it though ; like really would any dude seriously take all of that and find it cute for a girl to be THAT clumsy & obsessed with penguins? Lol; IDK. But yeah I deff loved it because of the penguins; I love penguins not only because there cute ... but if you really look into them & learn about them there such careing & loving animals :)

mondays suck without you GG !

oh how i wish.

Maybe I'm just a hard person to love?

Ive been on my "independant ladies" mood lately. Lol. I know what I deserve so I have been pushing all my past mistake of an ex douchebags out of my life. I dont even respond when they say hi; nothing at all. Just because I'm over the small talk ..were not friends so why act it right?

A lot of my closest homegirls have been in bad relationships; yet somehow they always find a really great guy after a month or so. But me -- well I just pick asshole after asshole. Lol. But then I start to wonder maybe I'm just a hard person to love. I make it too hard on the guy ..Idk. I have had my share of good guys but I'm just so damn picky and it deffinately gets worse as months progress.

Dude needs to be like MY total package - funny; smart; family oriented; pretty boy; yet manly at times; not too sensitive; a little bit of a jerk ( cus I gotta admit I do enjoy a little heated debate from time to time; Lol ) he's got to love my friends & be able to hang out with us go out and have fun with us; yet at the same time a romantic ...someone spontaneus & not scared to put themselves out there to show me they care.

In my eyes I havent found that yet ; Who knows if I ever will. Either my standards are way too high or Im just one of those girls that are too hard to love.