Friendships lost, Friendships gained.

I think everyone can agree that a friendship is a lot more special, than any relationship you can gain with a man. They hurt a lot more when they are lost then a relationship with a boyfriend too !

Through out my life I have never been that kind of girl the changes up best friends, or friends in general...not because I am anti social , but because I think a friendship takes time to build a significant bond with one another that no one else can really understand.

Back in High School I had two really close bestfriends. I never lost them, but it was as though our bond was slipping away..why? Because at the time I had a boyfriend who made me feel tied down, like I couldnt have any friends. I admit I was not forced, but certain things he would say about my friends and the fact that he never really liked them , made things pretty awkward for me. Especially since he had no real reasons at all. Turns out to be he was just a really jealous, and controlling person at the end of it all.

But I missed out on a lot because of that, my whole senior year could have been a lot different. I went to prom , with him - so it did not really feel like prom to me. I was happy with him, but nothing compares to your girls. I chose sides , so I felt I had to live with that forever.

Now years later, these same two girls I can luckily say are my friends. I remember how much I so badly wanted them to forgive me for the way I picked him over their friendship, and it was a hard change to go through. I am blessed that these females have beautiful hearts and decided to reconnect with me , even more so now that I am expecting a little one.

Then there's my best friends since diapers. I have known these girls since I was playing with barbies, and having nap time in kindergarten. Lol. Its been a rough road trying to stay where we were, especially once we all left our comfort zone to start college, and no longer all live in the same building as we did for years. We went through struggles, about miscommunication, to slacking on having girls days/nights, and feeling as sides were choosen, and others being left out. In the end of it all - I would never change my best friends, ever.

I have grown to be that person that REALLY appreciates her friends, and never ever wants to let them down. If it were up to me I would see these girls once or twice every week, but unfortunately were grown adults and have many priorities to go through...but speaking to them every day is what keeps me going when hardships come my way. I have became that girl that will drop plans with my boyfriend, to see my friends...why? Because I can see my boyfriend every single day if I wanted to, I dont get to see my friends as much - so when ever I get that chance, I will take it.

I love my relationship, and I love my boyfriend....but I think every female knows that you cant live with just that. You need your girls. I am happy to say that my boyfriend is far from the way my ex used to be, and thats always a plus when your in a relationship - a man that lets you be with whom you want to be. Lets you have friendships, and does not get jealous or feel they will lose you through it.

So this post is just to let my friends know how much I truely do appreciate them, they can NOT be replaced. I really am blessed & grateful to have you all in my life - and especially the ones that have recently made such an effort to bring our friendship back to where it used to be.


Swap time !!!

I have decided I want to do a swap ! After seeing a couple post from other bloggettes about swaps they have done I think its time I do my first one.

If you dont know what a swap is ..well its simple you basically send a couple things you have not used , or you have always loved to someone else, and they do the very same. It varies from makeup to lotions to candies to jewelery, to even books.

I think its a fun idea to do , because you just never know what you will recieve. I dont know about you but I love coming home to a package !

So if you are interested in doing a swap with me you can contact me at ( Jsal529@gmail.com or via twitter @simpllyxgorjess ) !!!

Glee OPI

These colors are beautiful ! You can either get them at their full size, or the minis in a pack like this !

- Miss Bossy Pants: A rich raspberry as show stopping as Rachel herself
- Slushied: There's no need to duck from this opaque blue
- Celibacy Club: Even if it's only part of the show, express your inner angel with this glimmering, diamond top coat (Mini Kit exclusive)
- Gleek Out: A glittery lime green that will have everyone singing your praises
- Sue vs. Shue: Stay a step ahead of the rivalry with this rebellious navy blue
- Express Yourself to Yourself: Even more entertaining than Sue Sylvester in a music video, this coral shimmer shade will have people talking

#NowReading !

A while back, my freshman year in college I read a book called " The Kite Runner " and fell inlove with it. It was very different from most books I had read...it had nothing to do with what I could relate to.

In a nutshell, Amir, the son of a well-to-do Afghani , has a best friend, Hassan, who is the illiterate child of Amir's father's long-time servant. Both children are motherless. A horrific event, a secret kept, the loss of personal honor, and a lie come between the boys. From that rift, the story moves forward as Amir and his father emigrate to California, where Amir matures, marries, and becomes a successful writer, but is still plagued by those old sins and lies. Then comes a revelation of still one more long-held secret that sets Amir on a return trip to Afghanistan (now under the worst years of Taliban dominance) to rescue Hassan's child.

It made me laugh, it made me cry. I would read it all over again ! I remember the book was then made into a movie, and I watched it and loved it just as much.

Now I am currently reading his 2nd book called A Thousand Splendid Suns. I really suggest you guys check out either two books, they will move you in a way not any regular book can. It is a look into the lives of what we dont see or speak of daily.

Candle Crazy !!!

I have this terrible addiction when it comes to candles. It has become a really good stress reliever for me lately, and its something I always find myself looking for at every store I enter. Lately I have been buying a couple, and not using them ( as badly as I want to! ) but because me and the boyfriend will be moving real soon, I decided to keep them brand new to use for the new home.

Here are some favorites of mine ! :

Prego Update !

I am officially 1/2 way through my pregnancy @ 20 Weeks ! The boyfriend & I went to find out the sex of the baby on Thursday morning ....It is a beautiful baby boy ! We had picked out the name a whille ago , and he will be named Jace. (NO I did not get it from teen mom -_- ! I just found out theres a baby on the show with the same name, but its okay because my baby will be better ! Lol I chose the name for its meaning which in greek it means Healer,its also a variant short form for Jason which stands for "the Lord is my salvation".

I have a really hard time sleeping now that he is up and moving all the time, I feel him kicking and moving all the time , randomly as im falling into deep sleep on the train he will give me a good kick to wake me up. Lol. Its an unexplainable feeling to just feel a tiny little foot push up on your belly.

I never expected to be a mommy any time soon , but I am happy I am. I had a bad feeling I was not able to concieve ,due to certain health issues...so this just makes me the happiest person ever.

I feel God put me through trials and tribulations before to test & see if I was ready for this to be put in my life. I was put in a situation where I had to basically help raise my baby brother, at the age of 14. I gained so much patience and love for children during that time.

Then my father got remarried and had Baby Lucas in September of 2009. I grew so attached to him, and spend many days with him where I lost sleep bathing him, feeding him, etc. But I loved every single second of it. I would keep myself up just to stare at him sleep, and I think God saw how ready & how happy it would make me ..that he felt it was that time for me. I know I will be an amazing mother, because I know the difference.

I know that giving birth is not what makes you a mother. You really have to work for that title. You have to be a mother through actions & words. You cant just call yourself a mother..you have to really be one, no acting necessary.

I know I will love him beyond words, because I did the minute I saw those two pink lines on the pregnancy test. Also because he was concieved in love. I am inlove with Jace's father, and I am very lucky to know & feel that he is as inlove with me also. Call me crazy - but I believe that will just never change. From the minute I found out I was pregnant, our bond has grown SO much. I dont claim to have a perfect relationship - because thats just impossible. But I was very blessed to have found someone that loves all of me , even my flaws. I found someone that throws his pride to the side, and was capable to help me do the same. Ive never been in such a mature, and unconditionally loving relationship , as I am now. A man that has no shame holding my purse for me, I dont know about you but thats a keeper to me. Lol. He would do just about anything to make me happy, and thats how I know he will be an amazing father to Jace.

I am currently planning my babyshower, with the help of my cousins & my mother. I am pretty set on the theme, but I guess we will see. I have decided to go with photo invitations, which one of my great friends will be doing a photoshoot to use two of the photos for the invites. I also asked one of my good friends that makes her own collage journals to makes me one for Jace. A journal in which I will keep to write letters to Jace, day by day - even after he is born - so that when he gets older he can read them on his own. I will soon be working on a scrapbook with all my belly pictures :)

Pregnancy life has so far been good, besides the horrible symptoms , the moodyness - and urges to breakdown and cry for no real reason. Lol. I just keep reminding myself its the hormones and I must relax , no time to stress !

I will keep you guys updated once again, real soon !!!


#nowplaying ...

Happy 3rd Birthday ToughLoveNYC !

It was toughlovenyc's 3rd year anniversarry ...and as a huge supporter & #TeamClassyCriminal ..me && the little baby in the belly decided to wear our shirt today ! :) A big shout out to ToughloveNYC's very own Jess ! Keep it up !

Check it out ---> www.toughlovenyc.com
or follow her on twitter --> twitter.com/toughlovenyc

Quotes of inspiration :

Courage is not the absence of fear, but simply moving on with dignity despite that fear.

If you have zest and enthusiasm you attract zest and enthusiasm. Life does give back in kind.

Everything will be OK in the end, if it's not OK, it's not the end.

Those who do not know how to weep with their whole heart do not know how to laugh either.

&& my favorite of many :
Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.

No matter what you are going through , remind yourself everyday that it could be A LOT worse. I know when we go through certain things we tend to get lost in our emotions and sadness , speaking from experience..... but it is best to wallow & let it all out and then get right back up and be that awesome person you were even before you got hurt. Women are a lot stronger than men , I believe in that 150 percent ! So no matter the obsticales , you got it ! <3


Lipstick manifesto !

I love doing post like these, about inspiring people that I feel deserve to be known...and luckily they are loved ones in my life currently motivating me to be the best me I can be. I was blessed to meet the lovely Alison Stumpf, an amazing makeup artist that brings magic to makeup.

BIO: A make-up artist at the game for five years now, currently residing in her hometown of New York City. As a child, her grandmother would give her fake facials and pretend to put make-up on her, perhaps the fascination began then. It was not until the age of twenty that she was able to revisit that fascination; she embarked on an amazing journey and realized her true passion in life, make-up! She entered The Learning Institute of Beauty Sciences, (now Empire Beauty School) and was beyond excited and grateful to have an amazing instructor who brought out the natural talents she already had, and instilled great knowledge she uses to this day. Since then she has loved every minute of her journey in this field, from creating walking canvases in photo shoots to applying make-up in previous retail jobs she has had. She never takes for granted the amazing GOD given talent she was graced with, and is grateful and respects all that have come before and paved the way. Being the determined born and raised New Yorker that she is, she is constantly looking to grow and become better. She never wants to look back and say I didn't excel or give everything she has to something she feels so passionate about. She has a hunger and drive to show the world what she is made of, she believes knowledge is power and, knowledge to a creative soul is limitless. Devoted to her talent, and to set an example to those just picking up a make-up brush, using her time and talent to help others is her goal. She has seen the healing ability there is in just a brush stroke and was deeply rewarded by those experiences. She will never give up on her dream, no matter how long it takes to reach excellence, she wants to break down all doors to see what she and others are capable of, in order to reach accomplishments.


What inspires you ?
A: * My past, and the future, possibilities of what is yet to come, and knowing I can help, teach or touch someone's life with my talent.

Something you still want to do in life and why?

A: *This is actually a personal goal, and not professional. I want to be a mom. I have always wanted to be one, so I have someone to keep me alive when I am no longer here. To give them the world! Essentially an eternal purpose in life.

How did you find out makeup was your passion?

A: *I always did make-up on myself, I actually wanted to be an illustrator, comic book artist. A former boyfriend of mine, told me I didn't really have those skills in drawing, and encouraged me to look into make-up. I was like hey you know what I should, within a year I was in beauty school. Not to give him credit. LOL. The rest is history, I became engrossed in the industry and those who paved the way for me.

An artist/person you would love to do their makeup one day ? Why

A: * WOW. Great question. I would love to do a fantasy/ sci-fi look on Kim Kardashian. That would be so interesting. Also to pick her brain a bit, she has a great business mind. I look up to her she is a great example of a hard working entrepreneur. When asked why I started Lipstick Manifesto, I used her as an example. I want to build a brand like she has for herself. KIM GET IN TOUCH WITH ME LOL.

A place you want to visit and why?

A: * Germany. I already got to go to Puerto Rico. I want to go visit the places that are my nationalities.

A quote or saying you live by ?

A: * I have two. " Let it be" & " Everything happens for a reason". My Grandma Mary always said that.

A song that you think sums up your life?

A: * Frou Frous's "Let Go", Coldplay's "Don't Panic" ,& U2's "Walk On" . I have many more though.

What would you tell an aspiring makeup artist or a young teenager experimenting with makeup? Lessons, advice etc.

A: * First thing I would say is the never give up! Whenever you feel it can't be done, just apply yourself and keep going. Throw yourself into your talent and do not let anything get in the way. I wish I would have made moves earlier than 20, but I was distracted. STAY FOCUSED & WORK HARD , and your dreams will unravel right before you. PRACTICE, PRACTICE, PRACTICE! Early on in my career, I did many photo shoots for free, and to gain experience. Build your portfolio right away, you can always add on or edit it later on. Shoot for the stars! Have FAITH & HOPE ALWAYS!

Where can we see you ? Contact you ?

Every month I do beauty shows, throughout New York. You can check my website for updates in the events sections. And I will be doing seminars very soon! www.LipstickManifesto.com
I can be reached by e-mail as well alinycmu@aol.com


*Alison Stumpf

Your so vain ...

I bet you think this song is about you , dont you ?? ;)

But theres a cold breeze blowing over me. Im over you, success is the best revenge to pay you back & that payment is overdo. I overcame odds to get even....The sober me is shittin on the unsober you !

There aint no one on this Earth right now Id much rather be cus God dammit Im glad that Im me. I said if you could be where Im at...You'd wanna be you too :)


Happy New Year !

my new years resolution :

Besides stay healthy for me & the baby - PLUS be the BEST mommy ever ----

** Get my poetry book published ! I would love to do that by may but there is a lot going on right now, so I will be kind to myself and allow myself a whole year ! Lol.

my family & I made a box for our 2011 predictions. Things we think will happen in the year 2011 , to us and others. Its a really fun thing to do , we write it all down tape it up & put em in a box. We are not allowed to open them till the next new years eve. I got the idea actually from season 1 of one tree hill , Lol. I used to do it with my bestfriends each year , but it was something that faded - so I decided to do it again with my boyfriend & family ! :)

HK Private Sephora Event !

I wanted to go crazy when I saw this in a email sent to me about the private 2 day event , but decided I wouldnt ! I got one thing, and I am veryyy happy I got it. I use it daily lately !

Its the Charmmy Kohl Eyeliner Kit retailed at $25.00. Here are the colors :

Goodnight Dreams Black
Grape Juice Purple
Chocolate Milk Brown
Happy Cloud White
Blueberry Navy
Bicycle Teal green
Blue Sky Bright light blue

The way it just glides on to my bottom waterline without any pressure, is great. I love that it is the exact colors which it shows to be on the products themself also. It was a great buy - & can not wait till mid January for the rest to come out in stores, because I will be getting the rest of it :)


Im very picky when it comes to my music , as you all know im not a fan of the whole minaj hype. When it comes to Female mc's - we are lacking ! I found this artist randomly online checking youtube videos,and everything I heard was real. I felt every word she spit - & thats how I know when im listening to good music, when you can feel the pain spill through the lyrics - and it reaches deep down into your pain & your struggle. I loved her lyricism more and more after each video. So def check her out --> http://www.youtube.com/user/alysssaMariiie
follow her on twitter -- > http://www.twitter.com/alysssamariiie